Epiphany.

Live and Simply.

Two words that can definitely be interchangeable. Do I want to live simply...or simply live?

I feel like most people can do both. I missed that gene/way-of-life/memo. Maybe one day I'll wake up and decide that I want to live simply. Like Amish people simple. Nothing against the Amish at all considering I grew up around many of them, but they got it right.Well, alright maybe not THAT simple. At least living in the same town...city...state...OK hell country would even do.

I can remember moving down to North Carolina and not being scared at all. I knew one person that I was going to school with but aside from that I was at least 500 miles away from the nearest family I have. I thought that was exhilarating. I felt free (not that I was held capture in Ohio). Five years later, I still feel that freedom. I love my independence and my life here. So why does it feel like I'm looking for something more?

I would like to say it's hard imagining living somewhere else. I wish that were the case, but it's not. I love North Carolina but I also loved Ohio and we all saw how long that lasted after graduation.I'm debating once my lease is up (assuming I still want to stay in Charlotte by July) about moving into the city. I live in Charlotte right now, but I want to live IN Charlotte. Jin lives there and I absolutely love going to her apartment. It's in an amazingly ideal location in uptown and close to the Panthers stadium. Actually, it would be ideal if the Panthers actually were worth going to watch. Ok, so ALMOST ideal (sorry Panther fans).

Maybe it's because I'm twenty something (I feel so old), that my heart remains restless. Or, maybe I just need something about living in the city to scare the shit out of me. But right now I feel fearless and like I can do anything. Maybe that's just who I am. Maybe I'm just "simply living" because I know no other way. Maybe this is who I've always been, it was just being masked by something I was trying to be.