Heads/Tails

The song goes something like this...

"Call it in the air,
Heads or Tails,

Heads we go to London,

And try to save the queen,
Tails we go to Paris,

And try our hand at Romance,

Either way we're flying,

And at least I've got a chance,

At least I've got a chance."

Typically I find songs that I hear one time and simply fall in love. With this one, it's head-over-heels. I've been so restless lately. Completely fighting the urge deep within me to travel far, far away. I guess I traveled to PA within the last few weeks but let's be honest...PA hardly counts when it's on business. However it is always nice seeing places that I've never seen before.

Anywho, I don't really know where I get this "urge". I don't feel like anyone in my family has it and if they do, they certainly haven't made me aware of it. I've lived in North Carolina for roughly 5 years now and I feel a big change is needed sometime in the near future. I've moved 10 times in those 5 years and I've only been content for months at a time. I have a feeling small moves around the Charlotte area aren't cutting it. This is something I've been thinking about for awhile. Well...since I wasn't able to go to England.

I don't think I'm considering a move that drastic. I'm just considering something new...something unfamiliar. It's almost an intern struggle, though. I feel as though what life I have built here will be greatly missed. I don't have any family to leave this time, but the friends...the friends I would have to leave just like the ones I left in Ohio.

I want to believe that this is all a part of growing up. Of experiencing life outside of the world we grow up in. The problem is I left that world awhile ago to start another one. I wonder when this feeling will end. How many times do I have to leave what I create to feel content? How many more moves are in my future...