Put Me on the Road I'm Traveling On

It’s easy to blame the present on the past. In fact, it’s the easiest thing in the world. We fill our entire life with the “what ifs” and “if onlys”, just to think about what life would have been like had we made the other decision. Was I wrong? Should I have done it? Where would I be? What would my life be like?

I’ve been thinking a lot about that lately. I have major decisions that lie ahead of me and I’m stuck between the past and the present. Stuck going back over all of the “what ifs” I once considered. It’s funny too, because the decision that YOU make doesn’t simply affect you, but it changes so many other lives. It’s crazy to think if I hadn’t made some pretty vital changes how I would be living right now. Where I would be…who I would be.

I’m happy with life. Happy with my decisions, happy with the who and the what. Some people can’t even imagine flipping that around to 180, but I thrive on it. Change is definitely what keeps me going and I feel like although I’m turning (what feels like an old) 24 next month, now is the time to make things happen. I should feel afraid, uncertain or even hesitant. How I really feel is exhilarated, elated and euphoric. With change comes chance, and I’m going to take it. I’m not asking for opinions, I’m not even asking for support. I’m going to be taking big steps in the months to come. I’ve never regretted anything in my life; I can’t begin to start now…