Internal Struggle

[[I wrote this because I feel a constant struggle as a recent college graduate and I think a lot of people can relate. It’s about a fight within yourself about following your dreams and about what’s the best for you. It’s written as an argument going back and forth within oneself. I’ll let it speak for itself.]]

 

Some things you can’t explain-- no it’s not meant to be,

But it wasn’t too long ago I had all these dreams at my feet.

I gave up everything in hopes they might come true,

But the only thing now I see is no tread left on my shoe.

You can only run so long before you tire from it all,

You’re not given the tools to succeed,

In fact they put you on the edge to watch you fall.

Just how many people will it take to make you see,

That only one you’re hurting is the person you’re trying to be.

These words may be shallow only scratching the surface of your soul,

But when you turn and see there’s no one next to you I hope it makes you feel less than whole.

I’m not trying to get it-- no it’s obvious I don’t understand,

What could possibly be going through your mind when you had the world in your hand.

Too many people settle so I promised myself I never would,

But if losing is this painful then I really wish I could.

Life’s an internal struggle and we struggle through it all,

Make the grades, create the dreams and wait by the phone, don’t miss that call.

That call could be the one that changes your life forever,

But how long is forever when people keep telling you never.

So what are we suppose to do—forget our dreams and follow the norm?

You act like I’m such a bad person trying to weather the perfect storm.

I’m in a constant argument with myself, be who you are and you’ll be fine,

The only problem with that is the world is not just mine.

I have to share it with the pessimists and the optimists just alike,

It’s more than an internal struggle it’s a person to person fight.

How can we make peace when the reality is we’re at war?

Do we do what we need to do because we’ll get what we fight for?

There are no guarantees in life and in the end an education won’t matter,

You better land that job so you can climb the corporate ladder.

I refuse to give up as I have only one life that I call mine,

I’ll do what I need to do and I’ll do it in due time.

The last thing I should worry about is the fact that I won’t succeed,

For me it’s about a fulfillment and not relying on a need for greed.

I realize that that it’s a process and it just won’t happen overnight,

But if you don’t try, no matter what you’ll lose the fight.