...for many, many things. Many years since my last blog for one. And honestly, have things changed? No. Not really. So, lets catch up, shall we?
Oh my, where to start.
In my last post I was living in the Queen City. Life was...well, for lack of a better word it just "was". My friends were GREAT, my apartment was amazing and my job... "was". So that's when I decided that I wanted to move back to the great state of OH-IO. And although jobless, I had to change my life. Not long after, Cleveland called my name.
Cleveland was as great as Cleveland could possibly be. I absolutely adored my coworkers and my clients. I worked there for about a year and a half and in that time managed to get promoted and got a chance to truly show what I was made of. I had promised myself while there that no matter what, I would work my ass off, challenge myself everyday and do ME. But...
 Goodbye, Cleveland. |
Sometimes...it's just not in the cards. At that point, I knew that for once in my life, I had done everything I possibly could for my career and that the only promnise I didn't keep was to myself. It was my turn to live a little. Have a little fun and truly find out what I wanted in this life. What I've wanted all along.
I will never forget the summer of 2013. It was the first summer in my entire life I actually did what "I" wanted to do. It was the first summer I dedicated to my friends (or at least tried) dedicated to saving up money for my TRIP (you'll soon see where) and the first summer that ended exactly (or almost, exactly) the way I wanted it. I'll never forget the amazing people that I met from all around the world who will always be with me in spirit. I had one of the best birthdays I can possibly recall, spending the day after in Cleveland with some amazing people and watching USA Soccer at Browns Stadium, not to mention spending it with my family, which I hadn't been able to do in YEARS!
I wish I could remember every single detail of my summer, but there's a lot of it that's simply just a blur. From two of my best friends in the entire world getting married, attending numerous get-togethers with friends and family, seeing Mumford and Sons with Petra, working COUNTLESS hours back in the serving industry trying to save every penny I possibly could, to trying to remember every single day where I was there...to have fun. Finally, for once in my life, I was able to leave my job at work and really trying to appreaicate the small things for what they were.
Like all good things, summer started to wind down and these people who I had spent hundreds of hours with this summer, people I considred family, started leaving one by one to go back to Uni and their jobs in their home countries. My friends from the states started to go back to their jobs here and I was still on this small isand trying to figure out what in the HELL I wanted to do with my life. I knew by the time October had come around there was still one thing that I was looking forward to. One HUGE thing. One thing I had honestly made this life change for.
Oh yeah...that trip I was talking about.
I had literally been waiting almost 5 years to the date for this trip. It all seemed so surreal. That moment I walked into the airport to get my passport stamped and knew that within hours, I would finally have my feet where they should have been all along.
I'll never forget the exact moment I looked down, after the sun at just come up only minutes before and seen not the ocean anymore, but land. It was an incredibly long red-eye trip from Chicago to London. In fact, I really didn't sleep the entire way. My mind had gone over everything that had happened in the past 6 years that had led up to this moment. In fact, 5 years ago when I was suppose to come over for school I can imagine how my thoughts would have been so different. That time, I would have been completely alone, traveling into a world I really knew nothing about. And now, to have one of my best friends by my side to venture with me in a place I had never been, but felt so familiar. It was definitely the trip of a lifetime.
Coming back, I had said that it was clear that my future was in the states. For the time being, that may be accurate. But if I was being completely honest, in a year, that's probably and out-right lie. Only time will tell...
Now, I'm in Ohio. I'm home, close to many of my friends and family who have been nothing but supportive in the past years. I have an amazing job with the American Cancer Society that I wouldn't trade for anything right now and I think I've finally figured out what and who I want to be. All though I'm ever-changing, the truth is there are still some things that I can't seem to let go. Some things that seem to be such a huge part of my past and of who I am, that if I completely lost them it is I who would be lost.
For now, I'm back, focusing on my career and how I can make a difference with this life that I have. But don't get it twisted, I'm still the same person I was 5 years ago. For unfortunately that, will never change.
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